If you have read very much of my blog you will know that I have a love/hate relationship with our home. A little history about our home . . We build our house 5/1/2 years ago to meet our then current family's needs. We were so excited because I was pregnant with our second child and we had decided to adopt our third child. Building a smaller home would allow me to stay home and raise our children. Life was perfect and our home was perfect for us.
We knew as we adopted more children, especially our son in a wheelchair, that we would not be able to stay in this home forever. However, I did not realize how difficult it would be to find a home in our price range to meet our growing family's needs. I have been very actively looking for a home for about two years. I have found Nothing, Nada, Zilch! Honestly, it would take a miracle to find a home in our price range that would meet our family's needs.
My frustration has escalated to an unhealthy dislike for our home. It has become a topic that is causing frustration between my husband and I. So I have decided to release my home over to God. I need to stop focusing on the barriers of our home and focus on the wonderful memories we are making. So today I am going to write down the top 5 positive things about our house.
5. We have a beautiful yard with room for the kids to run and play
4. Our 12 passenger van fits in the garage
3. It is warm in the winter and cool in the summer
2. Our home is filled with laughter
1. It allows me to stay home with our children
So today I am giving our home over to God. I am no longer going to complain about the limitations. I am not going to focus on the "what if we had" "wouldn't it be nice to have". I am going to rejoice daily that God has provided a safe, warm home for us to raise our children.
God is good all the time and I know He will provide in His perfect timing!
I am with you Becky. I need to work on this as well. Our home has so many problems but I've been actively trying to let it go as stumbling block to my faith in God's ability to provide exactly what we need. Our house gives us shelter and our kids love it. That should be enough for me.
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