Friday, March 12, 2010

Being "REAL"

The Holy Spirit must really be on the move and doing some big stuff. Just in the last couple of days I have heard several people mention the need to be "REAL". It is crazy, the last two days I have really struggled with the fact that I feel like I always need to have on the happy, everything is great face. Well, I hate to brake it to you but everything is not always happy and great at my house. LIFE IS HARD and this week has been very trying. I think many times I feel the need to keep things private because of the people who like to say, "you brought it upon yourself" or "maybe you have gotten in over your head".

Honestly, I am tired of trying to be the perfect mom, wife and keeper of my home. It is exhausting!! I am just me, a child of God, who just wants to do what God has called me to. I want to love my husband the best I can. I want to train up my children in the ways of our Heavenly Father. I want to support and minister to my friends and neighbors. I want to care for the least in my community and across the world. I just want to be who God created me to be. I DO NOT want to be "perfect" in the eyes of the world but I AM "perfect" in the eyes of MY CREATOR.

So, that being said the next couple of days I am going to get "REAL" about life in our home. BUT I also want to make sure that I say even though I am exhausted, frustrated, and sometimes feel beaten down I would not change my life for anything. God created me for "such a time as this". He did not create me to live a comfortable, easy life without trials and troubles. I am not throwing a pity party for myself and I don't want sympathy. I just want everyone to know the "REAL" me and my "REAL" life.

GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME

2 comments:

  1. Hey Rebecca! Being real and allowing others to see that makes us feel NORMAL! LOL! Praying God will give you HIS strength and endurance to run this race HE has called you to!:) I cannot believe how GREAT Sera looks!!! WOW! Take Care!!!

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  2. I'm stuck here too. We just received baby #9 who is a sibling of two of our other sons. How often do I get the roll of the eyes and "I don't know how you do it all." Well, not very well some days. I feel caught in the tension of being a witness and coping with reality. We did "bring this on" ourselves but to NOT do it would have been disobeying God and THAT would be worse/harder. I'm convinced.

    I am prone to pity parties as well and some days I just wish for a little support and understanding.Sure, #9 could have stayed with the other foster family but would that be right to separate these brothers from their sister? Sure, our life would be easier (relatively) without a 4 month old.

    This life that God chose for us is not comfortable. You are right. Thanks for your post. It encouraged me.

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